Thursday, February 5, 2009
well wats up dudes. well today aint so good again. well like just how it was ystrday. only today i went to sch i was in control of myself as in i was my usual self durin the first half of school. but durin recess it all changed. when i went to play basketball. i could feel myself goin haywire again. but i took no notice only later then after the match i was back to normal. so durin the two periods of mother tongue i was normal but after mother tongue i was lost to my haywire self again. and i did not noe i was haywire again. it is like as if i have no idea wat i am doin . then after one incident i realised i was haywire i tried my best to control myself again but but but......... soon i was back to the same again without realisin. only when i came out of the school gate then i was back to normal. but that was nt the end, i realised i did the same amount of nonsence as i did ystrday. this has gt to really stop. i don wan to loose wat i have achieved in the last three yrs. but how i really don noe wat is happenin nor how do i stop it. ive gt to do something. the only thing that i am scared of is that it will get worst and i will harm someone without knowin. that is wat i am afraid. so if tht happens guys forgive me. but i will be doin my best to make sure it does nt get to that stage,well i guess that is it cause gtg for class in 5 min. o ya today lessons were as borin as usual .well gt to memorise ss for next tues again!!!!! all the 8 consequences le. piece of nonsence le. haiz well i guess i will go now. tc of urself see u.
エクシア,オレのガンダム
2/05/2009 12:11:00 AM
