Sunday, November 30, 2008
yoyo.this is goin 2 b a long post.firstly, ystrday(sunday).well it rained again.the other days hv been quite sunny i must say which reminds me of u(jm).wat 2 do?cant get u out of my head.anyways wed and thurs hv been a bit boring but the other days r ok i guess only bored. well cause the bandsmen are out. only ystrday, i suddenly became very down.ya it may sound weird,me being down.but it is the truth. well i guess it is cause i was thinkin abt nxt yr, where i will have to split with all my friends. u noe, this is the school wher b4 i entered i thought i will do well and exit the school at the end of the yr and transfer to yung ching. bt y i nvr? this is cause in this school(yuhua),is where i found friends, that i can really call friends. moreover we are there 4 each other. then also became a prefect.something that i have been longin for a very long time. furthermore,i found her,my sardarni(lady luv). that was y i did nt wan to go and stayed on. bt things went so well and i am proud of it, bt nw havin to say goodbye is very hard. and worst seperatin from my friends and jm. haiz it is too much. y cant we juz move on together and nt seperate?well after ystrday thinkin and reflecting, i realised i cant move on without jm,she is the sun in my day and the settin sun in my evenin. how am i suppose to go on when the sun keeps remindin me of her?n worst i cant live without her, a life without her is nt worth livin nor thinkin abt.wat i had ystrday was my heart and which now is gone too. that is the slogan i use.it has the meanin of the things.i confessed to her quite a bit back i think almost 6 months back and i did nt get the ans.i am lookin for it, but she did nt give it to me. it is like she hanged me there and left.even if the ans is a no, i wan the ans from her. but how? we don even talk, nvr msg properly cause in between she will suddenly nt reply.msn also same as messagin.how? i have had countless dreams of her. some of which she talks to me, some of which she is together with me,(together as in stead), go to shoppin malls with her wher i followed her to buy her stuff and then encountered some bullies who tried to take her away. but being a jat that i am, i did nt let it go, i went after them and whacked them alot, though i had a slight injury, i did nt let it bother me, i went to carry jm on my back and brought her to the clinic as her ankle was bleedin. then wat happen i don noe cause i woke up at that part. ya i dream of the dreams becomin reality. ppl say the fault is hers and she shld appologise, but y do i feel i did the mistake instead. of which is tht i went for her?she may just be way out of my league?but most importantly is i wan to see her happy. that is all. most important is nt me but is her.but i wan things to go back like how it was!we being close, messagin properly, msnin properly and most importantly havin her to laugh at my jokes like how she used to. ya my jokes have improved instead but she does nt hear them anymore. ): is it nt possible to make that come true?havin my dreams become reality?i wan to be there for her always. like how a soldier protects his country, i wan to be her knight in shinnin armour and protect her always or be the commando that is ther for her.i may lack in the looks department, but is that all that is looked at nowadays?nt the character?nt whether he is sincere for u ?is looks really all that counts?all i can say is tht in the future, we may or may nt be together but if i get to be with her is a life that is very enjoyable. and ya i promise that if i were to get her no matter when, i will promise to be ther for her and be very gd to her no matter wat.in the future if we are nt together, i may need to get married to make my parents proud bt the gal that i may marry most prob will nt be love cause luv only happens once, the rest are adjustments.that is one thing that scares me.lets say that in the future when we are grown up and all and we are together, and decide to get married, there isnt much she needs to give up,basically only cow meat.she does nt need to convert and does nt need to change her name.i really would like to be with her but i wan her to be happy first that is the most important.well so far this is only dreams of mine and only u jm can make it reality.i hope it does become reality.
エクシア,オレのガンダム
11/30/2008 05:04:00 PM
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
well it has been two days since the bandsmen left and ya it has rained TWICE. then ystrday agian go jw place to enjoy but went to school to help mr wong and the other teachers with kel and navin. well we helped till 12 in the afternoon. well there was a lot to be cleared i must say. and we thought we were messy. the mess ystrday was alot . well cleared it up anyway. but then went to jw place, there only had a short time to relax but even so i was nt enjoyin so much cause my mind is still wondering around bothering abt stuffs. haiz, sometimes i guess it is like that. well then today again nth much as usual. well shall end here.tc see u.
エクシア,オレのガンダム
11/26/2008 05:18:00 PM
Monday, November 24, 2008
well today again nth special. only today night going temple again. and ya tonight the bandsmen will be goin korea. well tc of urselves peeps and enjoy urselves. see u all nxt time. tc. well ya i also dreamt of jm again yesterday. well it was about us in school and exactly wats happening in the present of which is that she doesnt talk to me, ignores me, then nvr glances. well hope things gets better. but well as long i get her in my dreams whether the dream is good or nt doesnt matter.as long as those dreams are there. i get to sleep properly.well saluting here. see u nxt time.
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11/24/2008 05:46:00 PM
エクシア,オレのガンダム
11/24/2008 05:04:00 AM
Thursday, November 20, 2008
yo guys sorry 4 da late post.and ya the pics are posted from the last pic that day to the first. so if u wan to see the first pic it is the bottom 1.last one is the one on top. sorry 4 any trouble. well last sunday went to labrador park. there we played and had fun. ya u can see from the pics. there we even saw the sunset. for me i kept on staring at the sunset and thinkin of _ _. guess u noe who hehe. well then i took the pics of all different times of the sun till it was gone. then later saw a big cruise ship as well and took its pic.then on monday, went to jw place but only 2 of us excludin jw went. but we enjoyed ourselves. though i enjoyed myself, my mind was somewhere else thinking and worrying for some people. some of them i bet u noe, but the others u wont. haha. then tues stayed at home but excited that band camp is finishing the next day and that my grandparents will be coming back on that same day as well! then in the night went to temple.o and ya it was cleo's b'day as well. HAPPY B'DAY CLEO. wednesday was nth much, people from band finished their camps wooohoo.lol. then at 5+ my grandparents came back. my uncle went to fetch them but my family and my aunts family went to see them. i was relieved to see them back but also sad to see my grandmum still sad over the incident and still cry once in a while. my grandad is nt that bad, i think he gt over it. well it is cause they went to india to see my grandad sister who had cancer and was goin....... then one of the days when they were there she passed away.booohoooo. i nvr gt to see her also.but well then we went to eat, my mum and aunt talked to my grandmum. the nxt day was the day that psle results came out, i was waiting for my cousins results,the seemed confident of express. but on thurs itself i went to jw place again. this time one more person joined us. we enjoyed and this time my mind wasnt so loaded as well so it wasnt so bad. then yesterday night did the updates for my other computer till 1 plus in the morning. finally it was done and ready to use. wooohoo. then today it is nth much again just resting. well take care of urselves see u. エクシア,オレのガンダム
11/20/2008 05:09:00 PM
Thursday, November 13, 2008
well to think that ystrday when i posted ystrday post was just a few hours b4 _ _ _ _ _ came back. well nice to have her back. seems that there was very fun. well somethings are weird and hard to explain. i deck of cards can seem like an ordinary game. but wat happens when u normally are suppose to win in that game and then suddenly u lose every match on the day that someone goes overseas. it is totally weird right. nt only that the worst part later is that when that someone comes back. on that day itself u win at all the games u play. uno, monopoly etc. it is totally weird. but that is wat happened to me this pass week. i guess u noe who the person i am referin to ya? well then yesterday dreamt of two ppl again, _ _ _ _ _ and jm. wat a nice dream. we did talk but we talked in dota. weird huh? but well the point is we talked and that is the most important. well hope get to dream again. yahooo.well endin here. see ya and tc.o and ya jm finally tagged. hip hip hooray, hip hip hooray. lol. ok gtg tc.
エクシア,オレのガンダム
11/13/2008 05:07:00 PM
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
well yesterday went to watch high school musical 3 with some of raleigh members. well the movie is average i would say. it revolved around a few things such as last yr in high school and having to say goodbye. then also love etc. well only thing there is too much songs. well i guess nxt yr will be my turn to having a hard time to say goodbye. well lets try nt to think abt that for the time being. well then after the movie we went to long john. o ya we went to vivo to watch the movie. well after eating i had to go home cause i had to go temple again later. so then i rushed back home. well then in the night went to temple. not much ppl were there. well then came back. and ended the day. well today nth to do as well.but i noe that i dreamt of (_ _ _ _ _). haha nvr talk in the dream. haha. well all i can say is i ask someone(_ _)to tag on my tagboard and agian she nvr. well if this destiny i cant do anything right? ): then ya today someone comin back yahoo. hehe. well ya that is it for today i guess. c ya.
エクシア,オレのガンダム
11/12/2008 05:32:00 PM
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
yesterday was freaking fun. we went to jian wei's place. there we started our movie marathon from 9.35. we watched 'singh is king' first. it was freaking funny, even mal enjoyed it. then we watched kung fu hustle. that was also another funny movie with a lot of animation.then we had to stop for a while cause jw said that we had to let the tv rest if nt would overheat. so in the mean time we played monopoly.unexpectedly we played till 6+. which in another words marked the end of the marathon. but playing monopoly was just as fun. we laughed like siao.if only u could have come too, _ _. then it would have also been more fun.well we also kept on instigating alvin to just die and give up. then i quickly rushed home as needed to go to temple. well overall everything went well. everyone enjoyed themselves alot. with that we are again planning to have another again. but this time we plan to get more people. hopefully most of them can make it ya? well this week two of my close people will be returnin. yahoo. tomorrow, _ _ _ _ _ will return along with the others that went to kerala too. well then this sat my grandparents will be returning too. yeah. well hope everything goes well. shall end here now, dont want to get late for the movie i am going today.c ya
エクシア,オレのガンダム
11/11/2008 05:04:00 PM
Monday, November 10, 2008
エクシア,オレのガンダム
11/10/2008 12:22:00 AM
Thursday, November 6, 2008
sorry for the late update peeps. well the past few days have been boring. yesterday(thurs) was a sad and nice day. good news first, i will be taking a maths. yahoo. financial literacy programme was moderate. well yesterday some people also did nt continue taking a maths. well jm u did it, u are taking a maths, see didnt i tell u so?well nvr give up i will be there if anything. well heard cleo not taking a maths, now that is a very bad news.dont worry cleo i guess they know wat is best for u. so try no to be so depressed and embrace the future. come on u can do it. well then ----- flew off yesterday to kerala. will miss u. infact started missing u from the last msg i send u. ): well tc and wish u a safe flight. enjoy urself. well nxt tues will be the fun day peeps. let u noe soon.hehe. well still nt sure whether my grandmum goin india on sat or nt. well if she goes wish her a safe flight too. and i will surely miss her. she has also always been there for me. i cant imagine a life without her. i wish she and my grandfather can live till a ripe old age. well ending here peeps enjoy.
エクシア,オレのガンダム
11/06/2008 04:35:00 PM
