Sunday, November 30, 2008
yoyo.this is goin 2 b a long post.firstly, ystrday(sunday).well it rained again.the other days hv been quite sunny i must say which reminds me of u(jm).wat 2 do?cant get u out of my head.anyways wed and thurs hv been a bit boring but the other days r ok i guess only bored. well cause the bandsmen are out. only ystrday, i suddenly became very down.ya it may sound weird,me being down.but it is the truth. well i guess it is cause i was thinkin abt nxt yr, where i will have to split with all my friends. u noe, this is the school wher b4 i entered i thought i will do well and exit the school at the end of the yr and transfer to yung ching. bt y i nvr? this is cause in this school(yuhua),is where i found friends, that i can really call friends. moreover we are there 4 each other. then also became a prefect.something that i have been longin for a very long time. furthermore,i found her,my sardarni(lady luv). that was y i did nt wan to go and stayed on. bt things went so well and i am proud of it, bt nw havin to say goodbye is very hard. and worst seperatin from my friends and jm. haiz it is too much. y cant we juz move on together and nt seperate?well after ystrday thinkin and reflecting, i realised i cant move on without jm,she is the sun in my day and the settin sun in my evenin. how am i suppose to go on when the sun keeps remindin me of her?n worst i cant live without her, a life without her is nt worth livin nor thinkin abt.wat i had ystrday was my heart and which now is gone too. that is the slogan i use.it has the meanin of the things.i confessed to her quite a bit back i think almost 6 months back and i did nt get the ans.i am lookin for it, but she did nt give it to me. it is like she hanged me there and left.even if the ans is a no, i wan the ans from her. but how? we don even talk, nvr msg properly cause in between she will suddenly nt reply.msn also same as messagin.how? i have had countless dreams of her. some of which she talks to me, some of which she is together with me,(together as in stead), go to shoppin malls with her wher i followed her to buy her stuff and then encountered some bullies who tried to take her away. but being a jat that i am, i did nt let it go, i went after them and whacked them alot, though i had a slight injury, i did nt let it bother me, i went to carry jm on my back and brought her to the clinic as her ankle was bleedin. then wat happen i don noe cause i woke up at that part. ya i dream of the dreams becomin reality. ppl say the fault is hers and she shld appologise, but y do i feel i did the mistake instead. of which is tht i went for her?she may just be way out of my league?but most importantly is i wan to see her happy. that is all. most important is nt me but is her.but i wan things to go back like how it was!we being close, messagin properly, msnin properly and most importantly havin her to laugh at my jokes like how she used to. ya my jokes have improved instead but she does nt hear them anymore. ): is it nt possible to make that come true?havin my dreams become reality?i wan to be there for her always. like how a soldier protects his country, i wan to be her knight in shinnin armour and protect her always or be the commando that is ther for her.i may lack in the looks department, but is that all that is looked at nowadays?nt the character?nt whether he is sincere for u ?is looks really all that counts?all i can say is tht in the future, we may or may nt be together but if i get to be with her is a life that is very enjoyable. and ya i promise that if i were to get her no matter when, i will promise to be ther for her and be very gd to her no matter wat.in the future if we are nt together, i may need to get married to make my parents proud bt the gal that i may marry most prob will nt be love cause luv only happens once, the rest are adjustments.that is one thing that scares me.lets say that in the future when we are grown up and all and we are together, and decide to get married, there isnt much she needs to give up,basically only cow meat.she does nt need to convert and does nt need to change her name.i really would like to be with her but i wan her to be happy first that is the most important.well so far this is only dreams of mine and only u jm can make it reality.i hope it does become reality.
エクシア,オレのガンダム
11/30/2008 05:04:00 PM
